Happy Birthday To Me

What have I been doing with myself lately.

I threw myself a birthday party and for once in my three decades plus three years of life, asked for help. Contribution is a miraculous thing. Bestest birthday ever, and I am convinced I have the best friends on the planet (even those that didn't make it - I still love you :)

So I still haven't gotten my book published, nor settled down in a relationship, but the company is progressing and we are looking for office space. I'm also heading on a safari to AFRICA in t-45 days. Lions and tigers and giraffes, baby, bring 'em on. Have been meditating to connect with the energy of the animals I will see, trusting that who I see has some meaning. I can't wait to feel the energy, the raw tribal, forceful creative energy that I believe will be Africa.

But I have to get some shots first, which I am not exactly happy about, being the non-western-medicine type of girl, but alas, this time this non-conformist has to fit the mold. But I am following it up with a trip to my alternative healer type person to ensure my body heals from the stuff that is supposed to protect me from foreign viruses. Irony.

I realized recently that I play a game - a life game - called "have it all" - that I believe that I can create a world-altering company, have a wonderful partner-relationship, someday have one/two kids, and have a life I love most days. I really, truly, believe I can have it all - it requres though that I play with *others*. It's a fun game and it keeps me busy, and I am pretty much always on the court of life, striving not for more because I am trying to make up for something I'm not, but because this is a fun game to play. 'Cept when I get stuck. Stuck sucks.

Okay, enough of the Julie-positive-energy thing that my friends know me to be. But I am single and accepting applications for someone who wants to be a partner as well as mate, and someone who knows me for all my pluses and minuses, and loves me anyway. Someone who likes conversation. Goodness, maybe I should put a personal ad up here? That could be interesting! Okay, not today. Maybe when I get back from Africa.